Hi Reader,

Yesterday, I was searching for something in my TBO (to be organized) folder on my laptop. Basically, the graveyard where screenshots and unused files go to die a slow death before I put them in the trash can.

And look what I found….this atrocious thing….

This was the cover that my publisher wanted me to use for my first book.

This was back in early 2023, so almost three years ago now…

Awful, isn't it? Looks like a crime mystery novel or something Dale Carnegie would write.

What's funny is I told them I wanted something modern, fresh, before its time.

I remember how appalled I felt.

How unheard….

But at the time, I knew enough about my human design to know that I had to speak up for myself, and so I did.

I fought and fought and fought.

What I went through to get my cover should have been a sign that I needed to pull the plug on this relationship.

But I didn't.

I didn't have the courage.

Back then, I thought I really lived my human design - knowing it, breathing it, and I was to an extent, but I was still stuck in the old belief system.

Straddling the old self and the new self.

I still thought I had to have a publisher in order to be successful, or to trap me into getting this work out into the world.

The speed bumps continued, and the reality is that it would derail me for weeks.

I would get so spun up in how things were handled or the balls that were dropped.

And I realized I was trying to put my disruptive work into an old school, antiquated way of doing things.

But the wheels were in motion, so I stayed the course.

Looking back now at this experience, and I don't think I've ever shared this publicly, the publisher was a security blanket.

But the reality is, as a 3/5 projector, I don't need one….

What's wild is that horrific experience (which continues to be a thorn in my side to this day, and don't worry…I will get my work back) taught me so much about actually owning who I am, my vision, and beliefs.

It forced me to look at all of the people in my life doling out advice, thinking that they knew what was best or better for me than I did.

Most of it was shitty.

Homogenized.

Lacking my personal beliefs, situation, vision and the ethos of my work.

I had one or two people who believed in me, who challenged me, and guided me to be who I am today, so that I could become who I am today and who I will be in the future.

These past few years have been fraught with challenges.

When I teach the deconditioning process, I always like to use the example of the lobster shell….

A lobster must get so uncomfortable in their existing shell that they shed it, then go into hiding to grow a new shell. This process repeats for the entirety of their lifetime.

Back then, I was hiding in a shell that no longer fit me….trying to let go. I'd see glimpses of her, but she wasn't ready or uncomfortable enough to shed the old self.

Then there was a period where I had no shell. Vulnerable. Raw.

Now with a new, more spacious shell that I can grow into…

I share this because I want people to know this work takes time.

Moving out of the knowing of your design into the integration, embodiment, and becoming of it takes time.

It requires practice.

It requires shedding, peeling, reckoning, and letting go of beliefs that don't serve you or were never yours to begin with.

It requires you to challenge, question, and ask, Who?

I began my human design study and knowledge in 2019.

Dove to the depths in 2020.

Deconditioned a lot during that time.

Started working with clients in 2021 with Human Design

Launched HD Your Biz® AND HD Wild and wrote the Human Design for Business Book in 2022

Launched the book in 2023.

Launched Gate Strengths and wrote some more in 2024.

Launch the HD Client Compass book in 2025.

Which brings us to the present day….

I don't recognize the girl who began this journey, but I am thankful that her logical self said yes to this journey.

I am grateful for the woman I am today.

The space that I can hold.

The work that I get to do.

The people that I am surrounded by.

The incredible humans my kids are becoming.

The unbelievable home that we have spent the last year remodeling.

There isn't an area of my life that human design hasn't impacted.

And all of it is because I said yes to studying my human design AND continued to lean in to practice living my design.

To reestablish the relationship I have with my body, myself, the child in me who was wild, too much, believed impossible things could come true, and didn't take no for an answer.

I know childhood Jamie would be so proud…

And I know future Jamie is thankful too…

For each step, I am taking actions that most people call crazy.

All of this is because I moved beyond knowing and into integration, embodiment and becoming.

Living your human design is practice, an unlearning and then a becoming.

We must peel back the layers of shoulds.

We must get back to the nature of who we are before the world tells us who we should be.

We must reckon with the way that is supposed to be done and pursue what we know in our hearts, desires, and passions, even if it is crazy.

We must pursue the thing, even if it's before its time.

This, all of this…is why I run the HD Wild - Ecocentric Human Design Training. ​

For your becoming.

For your clients becoming.

So more of us don't spend our adulthoods recovering from our childhoods.

So we can honor the Whole-Self instead of shrinking into boxes and glass houses that were never ours.

We can no longer just know; we must embody, integrate, and become.

We need more people in this world who honor the whole of who they are, and I cannot do it alone.

And I will not pretend like I know it all, but what I do know is that human design can change the landscape of our world.

And I am going to continue to forge myself into the develop of tools that can change the fabric of our world.

Human Design gives us back ourselves.

A permission slip to be.

But it has to go beyond knowing.

The world desperately needs more people doing this work….

Holding space for each one of us to stop giving ourselves away and start trusting, believing, and leaning into ourselves.

I know the vision that I see for our world, and the time is now to build it.

I know if more people lived out the whole of who they are, the world would be a better place.

If you feel called, I personally invite you to join me in HD Wild - Ecocentric Human Design Training. This is the only cohort for 2026.

Investment goes after December 31, 2025.

The first five people get a strategy session with me.

Got questions? Reach out to me here or on voxer at jamieLpalmer

With your whole self in mind,

Jamie

P.S. The timing for committing to this work is never perfect but I can guarantee that your future self will thank you for taking action and changing the trajectory of your life and business.